My Deepizm

"This is poetry as illumination, for it is through poetry that we give name to those ideas which are-until the poem -- nameless and formless, about to be birthed, but already felt. That distillation of experience from which true poetry springs births thought as dream births concept, as feeling births idea, as knowledge births (precedes) understanding" Audre Lorde, "Poetry is Not a Luxury" Sister Outsider (1984)

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

My Me Quiz

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/yourquiz.php?quizname=051026140132-235088

Now listen... If you don't know me... this is not something you should try. Ummm... it is a c0mplete and utter waste of time, okay? So no strangers should click on that link up there; got it?

Monday, October 24, 2005

My Head Hurts...


(in my best Baptist Preacha voice)
When it comes down to it [short pause to gasp for air]
and you've had one of them days... and uh
You just don't know what to do [musical in tone]

You just don' reached the lowest of the low [just about singing]
They say you ain't got no where to go
And ya head is a poundin
I said yooooo heeeeaaad gets ta poundin' [stretch it out]
"Preach Preacha!"

Well then you...
I said yoooouuuu [singing]
You (the choir fills in)
Got a head ache

Can I get a Amen?!

(I really shouldn't do that, but I swear that's what just played in my mind...)

Sunday, October 16, 2005

My Dreams

My dreams are alive in me
Alive and thriving
Not deferred
Unperturbed and driving
Driven rather by the things
Around me
Failure, hope, success surround me

My dreams are alive in me
I’m living my dreams, even
As they exist within me
Just as I experience life
And am alive

I’m a dreamer

Forever lost
Lost in my dreams
Lost in a daze
Forever dreaming
Dreaming the future
Dreaming the dreams

Forever…
Lost and dreamin’
All in a daze

Saturday, October 15, 2005

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Friday, October 14, 2005

Potenetial Energy

I have the potential to perform
Great miracles
I have the potential to break
Generational curses
But I can’t do a thing



Sitting
........On top
.................Of this
..............................Hill


(requires basic knowledge of physics)

Thursday, October 13, 2005

N_Deep

I hope Missy don't get mad, but i think it's an important image to keep in mind when you're talking to me... or any other human being

Umm...

Raise your hand if you don't date people you meet online!

*raises hand*

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Don't Get Mad... Get Glad

Yes, it’s been a while, but hey… I mean, you must understand that I’m a busy woman now. I have a part time job, I go to school, and I have to maintain an excellent GPA in order to stay in school. So, let me tell you this…

It’s going good. A lot has changed in me, mentally since the first day of class. It’s funny because I look at what I thought my Woman Studies class would be, and it’s nothing like that. All of my classes seem to intersect as far as the topics are concerned which ensures my interest.

I’ve got Sociology, Psychology, Woman Studies, and English. The English class deals specifically with the New Negro Movement of the early 1900s, or the Harlem Renaissance. The goal of the class however is to provide a view of the New Negro Movement on a much broader and more interdisciplinary context than it is generally taught. First of all breaking down the misconceived notion that the movement originated in Harlem; second, discussing the different versions of Washington, D.C. that have been talked about throughout the ages.

Psychology is my intended major so you can imagine how much I’m enjoying that. My professor, Dr. Umm-I-would-tell-you-but-ummm, is great. He’s witty and his teaching style is very conducive to my learning. In other words, he ain’t borin.

Sociology is very interesting, because it’s a discipline that I never really understood completely, even when I took the class in high school. I think Woman Studies, and the angle it takes in trying to identify forms of oppression in our social institutions and systems helps to give me a greater appreciation of it. I think it’s a good way to balance the Psychology, because it’s a constant reminder that many of the problems we go through on a “micro” level are not so personal, because they can very well be the effect of a “macro” issue.

Anywho, I’m going to church here…I’m not a heathen or anything. (jk). I was afraid initially that I wouldn’t find anybody trying to do this thing the right way, but I thank U Know Who that I have. They are really nice girls. And there are a handful of guys, but you know how that goes… smh. Where are all the good brothas at? And even if they are the good brothas, they’re either taken, ugly, in hiding, or a few hundred miles away from me.

I can’t even trip though. I mean, if I meet that special person, I do. And if I don’t, then I’ll die a very lonely old lady…

And guess what, I can say that I’m cool with that! Don’t get it twisted; I don’t want no junk, so I’ll wait for my perfect one...

Even if I have to wait on Jesus